Did Anyone Miss Me?

So, I went away overnight last night, but I am back. I was going to blog earlier, but I have a lot on my mind, and did not want this to be a depressing post. I have to say it, though, I have come to a crossroads. My dog, Sandy, is older, and I have been noticing lately that she is just not losing the weight she put on, even with a diet change. And, she seems to be having an upset stomach a lot, one night I had to keep letting her out so she could eat grass. That's the other thing, she has been eating a lot of grass lately. I let her out and it is like she is starving. So, I am rather worried that something is wrong, so since she is technically the family dog (they just ignore her mostly), we are trying to decide the what ifs. I mean, she COULD have something fixable, but she's older, so is it worth it if it is going to cost a lot and she will have to suffer through it only for it to come back again. Anyways, I am really sad because I know that there is no way I can afford a huge vet bill, and my mother does not agree with prolonging animals lives after they reach a certain point. I suppose, in a way, I was expecting something bad to happen to her, but not today, this week... even this year. Even with the grass consumption, she does not seem to be overly suffering. We are going to give her the week and then we I have a very big decision to make.

I lie, I knew this was coming, but you do not like to admit it to yourself... I still probably have not totally come to terms with it all. Yeah, so, if I am depressing for the next little while, you all know why. I'll try to be more cheerful later, but the dog is all I can think of right now.